is it me.. {pt. 2}

..or is Lil' Kim really starting to resemble a Bratz doll?

truce

there are times, when you realize that you were on a role with a specific thought pattern or idea that you developed or rather some sort of theory of how your life should, would, and could play out, but you let something or someone step into the mix. sure what they offer seems to catch you off guard a bit, but nevertheless it appears to be exactly what you were looking for all along. so you pause what you were originally doing to check out this new thrill that has caught your eye because you feel that you just can't let this opportunity pass you by, so you chance it. now naturally you've got your guard up, but as time goes by and the right things {or what seemed to be the right things} are said, you gradually begin to open up; thinking and convincing yourself that this one just MIGHT be different. hmm. WRONG! {right now the saying "it was too good to be true" is starting to ring a bell} once again life pats you on the butt saying "haha, gotcha!" in effort to keep you humble and remind you as to why you were originally on your grind, your daily hustle, your quest for self, or however you want to phrase it. it basically tells you that now is not the time to get side tracked on the "wants" that life seems to tease you with, but rather reassures you that all that will come in due time and if it was meant to be then it will happen after your genuine self satisfaction is fully achieved. then and there will you find the required time, energy, and whatnot to enjoy those "wants" without getting thrown off course. remember, '09 is about GRINDING; making things happen for yourself in the fact that you are dedicating this time to self progression and achievement. '08 was fun and all but '09 is the time, and time is money, and money is power, and power enables us to do the things we want to do in life by helping us get where we want to be. there's no time to stop and get distracted by drama nor is there time to be entangled in today's trends. it's time to surround yourself with like minded people. people that help fuel your flame rather than steel your thunder. {so to speak} time to stay focused and in tune with your own inner thoughts, dreams, and passions. time to choose wise counsel and positive company. time to think about yourself so you can be in a position to help others later. now is the time to make time matter!

Self Truce #1 - Never die to self.

never allow yourself, your goals, your dreams to be contaminated by those around you. don't fall into trends that you know deep down don't reflect or follow where you've envisioned your life going. don't fall victim to the pressures of inner and outer demons and forever stay strong in your opinions {no matter whose toes you step on}, your style {no matter whose swag you steel}, nor your dedication {no matter what dead weight you may need to cut loose}.

Studio

I'm sorry, but this is my blog and this topic is something that keeps popping up [especially with everyone suddenly pursuing their rap careers]. now this is not intended to crush any ones dreams nor am i saying that i do not support my friends who are on the "grind" [keep it up, because hard work never goes unnoticed], but "the studio" is the devil. even though that's where the magic happens and you guys are oh so focused and all.. but it seems to somehow be a problem within the female community. i heard that the hidden (or not so hidden) rule of studio etiquette is "no girls allowed" [whether actually in person or just simply on the brain.. B.S!] i refuse to compete with some damn studio. i use to think that dating an athlete was horrible because of their practice schedules, but at least that was usually at a convenient time. it seems like studio sessions pop up at the most random times ever! sorry if I'm going on a rampage here, but this is a topic that is secretly discussed between us girls on the regular and i can no longer say that I'm ok with not putting it out there for you fellas to get a taste of the other (more evil) side of your precious "the studio". no, we are [i am] not making you choose but we are [i am] rather asking you to allocate your time wisely. balance is key. everything in moderation. what you focus on grows and if you chose to focus on building healthy-lasting relationships then that's what you'll be blessed with. if you choose the other, then have fun trying to "make it" alone. [sounded a little harsh] i guess some guys just have a hard time distinguishing between a "down a** chicks" and a "groupie". because a "down a** chick" would support you in whatever you choose to pursue as long as it helps the relationship and not take away from it. whereas a "groupie" is always going to tell you what you wanna hear. so pick your battles. I'm over it.

[for my local artist, i love you all dearly.. keep doing what you do]

pieces

pieces of a man can often be looked at as pieces of a puzzle; everyone starts off with their own complete set. we are quickly put to the task of finding out how to arrange our given pieces properly in a way that makes sense, but somewhere along the way life happens and we lose some pieces whether due to everyday turbulence or other regular occurrences. some boxes collide with others' and for a season we swap our pieces in exchange for promises, companionship, love or other things that we can't seem to give to ourselves. but when it's time to part and go our separate ways we end up leaving some of our most prized pieces behind; pieces that can't necessarily be replaced because we are special limited edition puzzles, equipped with one-of-a-kind pieces and formations that can't be recreated. sure we can try all we want to go back and pick up what we lost but its not the same because our pieces have been left with clear marks of abuse, mistrust, and disappointment, and can no longer fulfill the void it was created to satisfy. so what do you do now? you work towards moving on and adapting to playing with the pieces you have left, ultimately forming this new person. and although you seem to carry the same exterior, you've been changed inside; you've experienced somethings, formed new outlook on life, switched up your change of pace, and have produced a new attitude because once again you've been through some stuff. now the question is when will you know when it's the right time to do it all over again and hope that this time around you achieve success in finding what you were looking for originally. love.