Thursday, February 19, 2009

stuck

what do you do when no one's telling you what you want to hear? sure, in your mind you know exactly what you want out of life. but for some reason you just can't find the words to express yourself to others and as a result they don't understand where you're coming from, nor do they understand what it is you want. they can only tell you what they see and want for you; since to them it seems like you're still having some trouble with decision making and are in need of some help. but who cares about them and what they think? who are they to judge? i mean they're only the people that effect our every motive, our every move and strategy. but yet "they" are our friends, our coworkers, our parents and grandparents, the people that mean the most to us and subconsciously we take into consideration every word of input, every frown of disagreement, and every nod in agreement. yet still we know what we want. we know how we envision ourselves talking, dressing, walking, and living. we know what it takes to reach that place of self-satisfaction, but for some reason we all aim to please.. as sad as it is. 

7 comments:

  1. you'll find your way like ONLY you can so don't you trip chocolate chip.

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  2. wow. you hit the nail on the head. i've been struggling with this lately & it's been SO frustrating. i know what i want, peers don't understand where i'm coming from & in attempt to please them & make them understand, i find myself altering my decisions.

    but like you said, self-satisfaction. that's most important. so that's what i'm working on...

    good post, erica. =)
    (as are all of your entries)

    --erin.

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  3. I often wonder why we aim to please so much...hmmm

    But anyway i say do what's best for you! It's your life and your living it and you should be able to direct your own path. As crazy as this sounds i say go with your first instinct as long as it does not involve self-injury, murder, or any crime that is punishable with LIFE, live your life for you! =]

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  4. Thanks Kiy! I'm very excited now about following this path that i'm envisioning. (and no i'm not suicidal.. lol)

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  5. you always take the words right out my mouth girl lol

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  6. well, i'm glad this is all a natural process. lol

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